It's been a little over 2 months since I posted this. I figured an update was more than overdue.
I was in a really scary place. A place that I have never been to before and I pray I never go back to. I ended up calling my counselor and explained the following "symptoms":
* not sleeping well
* constantly irritated
* on the verge of tears all the time
* if my anger meter is from 1-10, I felt like I lived at an 8 or 9 all the time
* experienced rage - never had before, I felt like punching walls, even my dreams were violent
* I found myself clinching my teeth throughout the day
* I attempted to get into the Word every day, but it was like I was staring at blank pages...all I knew to do was cry (literally cry) out to God.
We decided the best course of action would be to make an appointment with my doctor. While I waited 2 WEEKS for my appointment, I read over some of my journals from the past few months. I was able to see a slight pattern. Basically I would feel completely out of control until my period began, then all was right with the world. Because of this cycle, my doctor said I was experiencing SEVERE PMS...you think?!?! That's right friends...I have become that crazy woman all the PMS jokes are jabbing at. I've been on Zoloft for the past few months and it seems to help now that the dose is correct. It's also good to note that getting back into the gym, having set "me" time each week and actually asking for help around the house has also helped tremendously. I love my husband dearly, but despite all efforts he cannot read my mind.
So, there you have it and here's to being real!! :)
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Amazing how are cycle plays with us!! ARGH! Glad things are better and I know how great it is when I go to the gym and use that as my escape sometimes too!
i'm so glad you were able to figure out what was going on and find a solution. yeah! enjoying reading about your life again!! love you.
Love you.
Miss ya friend!! I am glad all is going better!!
I am now taking this herbal stuff in a pill for called CALM ADVANTAGE. So far it rocks!!!
I love you and miss you!
Hi Kelly, I'm so glad to hear things are going better. Emotions can be so hard. Pregnancy hormones/ emotions can sometimes be crazy as well. It's neat how God gave you the wisdom to see a doctor. I don't know that I would have thought of that without His help. I would have maybe just went with my rage and thought nothing of it.???? I'm thankful He gave you wisdom in other areas of your life as well. He is so good. It would be interesting to see if the regular exercise would do the trick eventually instead of having to use medicine. Just something to think about and pray about.
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